Waking….

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Hum, what to say.  This was non-traditional Irish Wake, for a good friends son who passed away a week ago.  I wasn’t sure what to expect, but all in all it was very nice.

I felt a lot like I was at a wedding reception minus the band and dancing.  It was held in a beautiful banquet hall, with linen tablecloths, glass dishes, water decanters on the table and BOOZE :). Free beer and a cash bar.  I didn’t know anyone but the mom and dad so I enjoyed observing the goings on.  A beautiful slide show with light music was continually running in a lope. Food was plentiful as well as a wide array of desserts.

What was really plentiful was love. So much love abounded in that banquet room; it was beautiful to see; family and friends all joyful about each of their own individual experiences in Jeff’s life. There was a lot of variety with the people too.  Bikers, business associates, some looking very flamboyant, some dressed down, some dressed up, some with many piercing, some barely wearing jewelry.  But all had a special kind of love for Jeff, and it was beautiful to see and hear.

I love that fact that funerals are becoming more like weddings in the way they are planned. People are doing more and more of what they want; rather that what society has dictated. What a refreshing story of living! I love the fact this was a celebration of his life, rather than a mourning of his passing!

When It’s my turn… take my ashes to the best band’s dance floor, sprinkle and DANCE DANCE DANCE!! (Hope they can get away with that 🙂 )

I know I should…

Today as the winter winds move quickly here in Eastern Michigan I’m trying to find the “slow down” part of me.  I think it’s lost or never existed.  Trying… is the key word. I usually run in high-speed, doing, being, talking, walking fast, and looking for the next thing to occupy me.  It’s hard for me to slow down. Even though I know I should.

I know I should meditate, be still, be calm, and take a breath.  But jezz-o-petes I think that is a talent or a personality trait.  People tell me it’s a practice… but hell, I never want to slow down enough to take the time to practice… funny how we are huh?

Some say we don’t “slow down” because we fear what we might see or feel. I don’t think that’s true, at least not for me. I am pretty open and aware of who and what I am.  I’ve spent a lifetime figuring it out and holding those ugly or uncomfortable parts of me close to my heart.  I see those things like rungs of a ladder lifting me (blessing me) up to where I am today, although I’m not done yet. Maybe I’ll just think about slowing down… maybe that’s enough for me J. Meanwhile, I’ll continue to run the race, reach for the stars and just be me.

Here we go…..

I hope for this to be an exciting adventure for all of us.  My spelling isn’t the best, my grammar is worse, but this is me.  My sacred intention is;  “That we love one another through the ups and downs. That we enjoy this path for all it’s worth. That peace abounds with each step we take and that in the end we know more and more about who we are and why we’re here”.  Namaste

Why am I here?

I wish for this to be a sacred blessing to all whom read it.  I want others that are scared, discouraged or feel like they are failing in their spiritual journey to feel OK. To know that we are all just a human beings, walking this earthly experience doing the best we can. Working our way through life with all of our ups and downs as well as the good the bad and the ugly.  I want to share with others that we “all” go through mountains and valleys even if we don’t talk about it. That re-doing our old ways of thinking is hard. It’s an everyday battle to walk consciously in the way we think and feel.  But in the end, it’s “right” to be whoever we are. To know in the end we are all the same, with all of the traits that come with being human. The spiritual journey is sometimes so easy, and others so frustrating. But as long as we keep walking… we are good. I want to give the voices in my head, my heart and my soul a voice. I need a listening ear. I enjoy the sense of community and like-mindedness. Maybe this will help all of us unravel the cobwebs in all of our heads.

I will share with you my inner spirit of love, compassion and joy. I will also share with you my fears, my frustrations and my emptiness.  I will do my best to hold your hand so you know that you are not alone on your path… I there with you also. I will cuss, swear and bless as I describe my inner spirit. I will cry with you, laugh with you and think with you. I will be as real as I can be.  I will, in the end do my best to show you that there is love for all of us no matter what. That our life truly is a magical journey. 

 I hope you will be able to resonate with my words, my thoughts and my spirit.  I send out the prayer (to set a sacred intention) that this blog blesses you and me as I enter this new endeavor.  Love and joy to you all! Namaste.